Friday, August 29, 2008

where I would like to be

This is where I would like to be...right there, on that very spot. I would even like to be with that girl in the picture...she is special and makes me so happy...but I'm not there, I am here and she is living out her life splendidly, fabulously and I will see her in due time.
Instead...I have been home, not feeling well with this August heat and have been alone. It is very quiet here and I have been left a little too long, but I heard something peaceful that made me appreciate this moment in my life...
"It is wise to be content when you are alone...the silence is peaceful and a gift...of the calm that follows each storm."
I embraced that quote and embraced being alone, silent.
There are no storms swirling around me, everyone I love is where they should be, doing what is right for them.
This is good and peaceful...and I am content.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

I am grateful for

beautiful greetings as I am nearing your door

reminders that no matter what, we are all still adored

***medical update ~ I had the sonogram and wasn't given much information, just an appointment card for consult with a surgeon. I remain very positive at heart and can feel myself warding away any fear.

I feel strong :)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

beauty from onions

yes...I did say onions
this is what happens
when you let your chives bloom

I guess one could say that
given a reasonable amount of time
even a little stinker
can end up looking pretty

who knew?

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

~ a simple reminder ~

too many days with flying time
who's in charge of that machine?
and can I have an appointment with him?

everything that was new seems old again
perhaps I need to see with fresh eyes
or these new shades aren't doing their job very well

the adventures have been few
but I feel close to a discovery
I just need a backpack filled with muse

and the courage to seize the day :)

Because nice matters...
I loved these 3 words put together. Simply stated, but oh so true. Nice does matter and so does kindness and sacrifice. This week I am going to create an environment for niceness, not just regular niceties, something really nice and I'll share it with you...maybe we can start something here...
because nice matters :)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

I'm ok ~ You're ok

After looking at the results from the last few days of testing, I am amazed that I even detected anything in the first was so incredibly small and will be an easy fix. Besides having faithful once a year mammograms, I check myself often and it's routine to me. That is why I noticed even the slightest change. I want to encourage you to do the same, it just may save your life, or make things simple to deal with and we could all use some simplicity, right? (I will have a sonogram on the 20th to determine the next step, again...I feel so much peace inside :)
Baxter is fine too. His situation was a reaction to a rabies shot injection site and is temporary swelling...whew! I think it's still a sympathy bump ;)

front room nap
exhaustion takes it's toll
I close my eyes
and clutch the pillow whole
the sun is creeping in
rolled in a ball with
dappled heat upon my skin
the day comes to an end
I'm satisfied and
fought the fight again

Monday, August 11, 2008

sympathy pains

Can your canine buddy have sympathy pains?
Mine does...Baxter has a lump by his arm and will see the vet today at 3:30. I will have a sonagram on the 20th to determine what is going on with me. I feel very peaceful about it and am more concerned for Bax right now.
I can't thank everyone enough for their support and well wishes. Things are looking up from here...Peace is a good feeling :)

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

calling all stars

Had a visit with my wonderful family doctor yesterday, let's call it a routine physical and we found a lump. So, he scheduled a mammogram for Friday morning. The results will be in next week. I appreciate his efficiency and the fact that I won't have to wait too long to find out just what is going on.

I am smiling and hopeful for a positive outcome and am asking you for some warm fuzzies to keep the blessings flowing. What a wonderful World we live in that I can even ask for this kind of support...ahhh the closeness of our blogging community.

Thanks so much...I can already feel the love :)

Friday, August 1, 2008

what August 3rd means to me...

It is this girl's birthday on Sunday and I can't believe that she is turning 24. She gave me loads of trouble on the day that she arrived. My labour started with a bang and within moments I was prepped for surgery. The umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck and foot and with each contraction we would loose her heartbeat.

Now, I can proudly say that she is my heartbeat, my best friend and the smell that I long for the most. She came into the world as beautiful then as she is today and forever will be.

We will all gather on that day to celebrate her and every accomplishment she has made. Who is she...?

She is Angela...Momma's baby girl...

and the sunshine of my life.